October 8th, 2006 (10:14 pm)
current location: new orleans, la
current mood: listless
current song: wooden wand - eagle claw
but it has. it's been forever since i posted, and i had no idea. perhaps that's a good thing? everything has been running crazy like my life is in a race. i don't think i'm winning. i haven't been in a very good mood today. i've been trying really hard to stay on top of everything at the same time that i try to stay happy and do good things, but it seems to get exceedingly difficult. i'm putting a lot of effort into things that might not be working out as well as i'd hope. i'm going to keep trying, because the payoff will be amazing if it comes around, but i'm getting very discouraged. some items:
last weekend TRASH TRASH TRASH was scheduled to practice on saturday as usual, but we got an offer from some loyola music biz majors to RECORD A DEMO. we were totally psyched because we needed a demo to enter ourselves into the LSU battle of the bands. we were supposed to practice at 3:30 and then go into the studio at 5. brandon, warren, tom, and i spent the day eating bagels and exploring vast trash landscapes, where maybe we will one day take some promo photos and shoot a music video. despite the glorious day, the evening quickly turned sour and, for various reasons that don't really need to be detailed, we didn't get to record or practice at all. i fell apart. leroy said, "you're supposed to be our stoic leader." i still don't know what he meant by that, but apparently i'm not doing a very good job of it. this weekend the band was supposed to practice on friday and saturday because we have our first, very important show coming up in TWO WEEKS, but we only got to practice on friday and it was only for a couple hours. things for TRASH TRASH TRASH are somehow going great and horribly at the same time. we got on the bill for a HUGE show (the crowd may be over 400 people!!!) at a really important venue, The Howlin' Wolf, and we're opening for two really big new orleans acts, Impulss and Soul Rebels Brass Band. however, it's two weeks away and we can't even get the whole band in a room together. our show with Fay Wray got cancelled for november 18 because the Shiloh closed down, but we're now playing with Impulss at the Dragon's Den that night instead, and Fay Wray is trying to rebook our show. we entered the LSU battle of the bands with our crappy myspace recordings, and it would be amazing to play, but it's doubtful that we'll get in. we're also definitely going to play a show at One Eyed Jack's in the upcoming months, which is AMAZING because it is such an important venue that a lot of great people have played at, including gravy train!!!!. our space suits arrived in the mail and we can't wait to decorate them. on the flip side, worst of all, we lost our practice space at fontainebleau and are now a homeless band again. i'm incredibly distressed, despite all the good parts. everything is coming together so nicely for us as an act, but as a band, we aren't coming together at all. i miss the cohesiveness of SV. but i suppose with an eight-piece, absolutely crazy ass band, we'll never be on the same level as that. but i'm still going crazy. a few people can't carry everyone's weight.
so i guess it's been a while since i last posted. since then, i have started a political party. i really encourage everyone to join. please look at our website, let us know how you feel about it, if you find anything objectionable, and also feel free to send some art to crayonsnotbombs@gmailcom. we will be so happy. right now there are about ten official members, but there are a lot more who have talked about joining or whose info we don't have yet. so please please do yourself a favor and get in there. in my opinion, it's really marvelous and i'm very excited about what we're doing. although apparently no one else is. well. one day... we'll see.
people are nuts. i really miss having girl friends. last semester i didn't notice this hole so much as i do now, partly because i came down here directly after a semester of solitude in memphis. i suppose it's sort of ironic that it's a year later, and now all i want is more alone time, to do what i want with. which is ALL i had when i was at CBU. stuff is funny. but yeah, girls. i get to see rita about once a week and it's really great when we actually get to hang out, but usually we're doing music stuff, and that's not a purely friendly relationship, so it isn't really the same. i haven't seen mallory or rachel since may. kate rafferty feeds me wine and gives me donuts, but she's not usually around and i just don't know her that well. girls, be friends with me! i miss you!
at work, i recently mailed books to hendrix college and the winter park, florida library. shout out to my bitches! our library really is an amazing place. we recently mailed a book called "on garbage" and i can't wait till it comes back so that i can read it. i have so much to read, it is ridiculous. and my school reading is getting less interesting than it was at the beginning of the semester, so i'm a little sad. emile durkheim is nowhere near as cool as karl marx, and aristotle's "metaphysics" is mostly bullshit so far. i prefer thales. i want to die by falling into a pit while looking at the stars with some wench. yes, yes. what a life.
on friday night, tom, brandon, and i trekked to baton rouge to see Subtle at the Spanish Moon. we were worried that we'd be late, after a delayed and lengthened band practice, but we were not. we sat outside and set things on fire. as in april, the band was fucking amazing. doseone turns their stage show into performance art as well as music, and his interaction with the audience and props on stage is fascinating. "what's black and white, and red all over? the middle class." plastic forks absolutely everywhere. i really recommend trying to see them some time if you can. also, we bought doseone's new solo album "Ha" and it is, of course, great. he is my hero.
i gave up on editing footage together for the TRASH TRASH TRASH show and now i'm just doing what brandon is doing and filming stuff to directly show without having to go through the editing process. it's a pretty cool way to do things. we're filming really simple images, because it's going to be chaos on stage. somehow we have in our possession: two tv's to show videos on, a slide projector, a 16mm film projector, eight tyvek suits, and about ten orange traffic cones. we are acquiring more and more crap as the days go by, and we're getting more insane. at the same time that i want everyone to come to our show, as of right now i'm a little terrified about what it's actually going to be like. but above all things, hopefully it will be a mindfuck. and i think we can manage that much.
i'm finally starting to look at the Littlest Trip footage and i'm having a ball. i really haven't watched anything i filmed since it happened, so it's fun to discover all this randomness on tape. what a great trip that was. it feels like a dream, even when i'm watching it. i wish life could be that way all the time. maybe it can be, who knows. but you probably have to quit school. in the meantime, we can relive the glory days on youtube. well, there's not that much there right now, but i'm working on it. stuff!!!! all the time!
i am feeling really lame. god damn it.